Mysterious

STUPID MYSTERY!! STUPID POWER OF MYSTERY!! -_-

What I'm going on about it how interesting Alex is to me. And possibly attractive. Not in the physical sense, obviously. I've only seen him in person once. o_O I know of the danger that would come with being around him and the possibilities of what could happen. I know he's killed someone. I know he is "damaged." I know of what he is involved with that his lips become burned every Halloween. Truthfully it scares me a bit. Probably more than a bit. But it's so interesting! Maybe I like being scared. Maybe I like my heart racing and feeling like horrible things could happen at any moment--that it is more likely to happen because we are talking about it. And maybe I like that he's taken enough interest in me that he has promised my safety if ever I pass through his home. And I feel like that protection extends to if ever I am in his presence. It makes me think of Genevra's dream and the power he held there. It also makes me think of my feelings for Josh... although Alex is much more intense than Josh was.

But this is just me thinking too much. I know it is. But that doesn't mean I can stop at will.

Okay. Very attractive.