Good Karma

Last night I confessed to Alex that I may have a bit of a crush on him. His response was "I had a hunch. And I think I'm developing a crush too."

You know how in the movies when girls are really happy/excited, they bounce around and squeal? I always thought that moment was exaggerated. Now I know it is completely true. Completely and utterly true. I had never felt elation before last night--never had someone I like return the feeling. And until last night, I hadn't known what it was to be so happy that you cried. I was bawling as soon as I was able to sit myself down. It's not entirely based on the fact that I like Alex and Alex likes me (of course I'm saying this with limitations), but on the fact that this is something I've wanted my whole life: to have someone return my feelings. It doesn't matter that absolutely nothing could happen. Our feelings for each other are only in the developing stage, so this could turn into nothing. That doesn't bother me; I've had my moment. And as I always think to myself, things will work out for the best. That's just how it's done.

I told Alex through text, so I didn't get to witness his expression, but he told me about it during our phone conversation that lasted until 5am. He had gone to a metal show with friends and was eating out with them at Denny's. He had been mid-sentence about how fucking hardcore that metal show was when he glanced at his phone, went silent, and turned red. Apparently I made him blush a couple of times last night. God I wish I had been able to see... But apparently his friends kinda prodded him for answers. I wonder if that was the first time they had seen him blush.

There was so much that was said last night that I can't even find what to type here. That boy is so good at flattery, even when he's just telling the facts. He described what my aura looks like to him: light reflecting off of a shallow pool of water. And I told him that his wit, persistence, and intellect were what attracted me to him. Apparently that made him blush as well.

So much, so much! I'm glad I have Alex.