Quick Update

The semester is over! Huzzah! And I got my grades back... lame. B+ in Japanese?! So angry. It's only because I had a fever for almost a week and wasn't allowed to go to class. TT^TT But. Now that's over with.

Break has been pretty good so far. Stephanie, Matthew, and Eve came up for a few days and we had Christmas on Monday. Everyone seemed to like the gifts that I gave to them and I liked all of my gifts.

I went to Alex's house for the first time last night. I was ssoooooo nervous, but it went well. His parents and brother seem to like me. And the kitties certainly do, especially Eevee. Dinner was delicious and a fun time. Alex's scarf came in the mail just before I was going to leave, so I was able to give it to him. He was so happy. ^_^ Hopefully he will be able to come over here some time next week.

The stress of meeting his parents held a cold mostly at bay, and now that I'm not stressed anymore, it's hit me head on. It really is just a cold, though, so it's alright.

Maybe more details later.

体が悪いよ。

Ha... well let's see. Aunt Chris broke her leg. Her and Uncle John were riding the motorcycle when a six-point buck jumped into the side of them. She broke a lot of her lower leg and there was a good bit of damage done to the bike, but at least the buck died. Somehow Uncle John was able to keep the bike upright. No one knows how. But. Our plan was to go bring them Thanksgiving dinner.

Everyone except for me left the Tuesday before break. I didn't know this, but it worked out well because I was having Alex sleep over. He's now a very happy Alex.

Thanksgiving was overall alright. It was just Uncle John, Aunt Chris, Uncle Eddy, Mom, and me, so it was pretty boring for me. I needed to write a few papers over break, one of which I spent Saturday in the dorm doing.

I went back home Sunday morning because UN Methodist on Airport Rd was holding a small concert and they wanted us to be a part of it. It was the Mos, Mrs. Roos, Josephine, Chelsea, and me. It was only two songs, but it was pretty fun. We were at the very end of the program, and, not to be egotistical, but we were probably the best there. Of course, we had Josephine, so that's not hard to do.

I've been sick all week. I had a nice fever from Monday night to Thursday, so with the exception of Monday, I didn't go to any classes this week. Japanese is going to suck when I get back to it on Monday... Alex kept me company a lot of the time this week. <3 He has started giving me my gifts for Christmas: "Urawaza," a fun book full of tips and tricks from Japan, a Sun Jar that catches the sun for me, a baby polar bear stuffed animal that he won at a carnival on Duquesne campus, and my new cello bow!! Everything is awesome. You know, besides still being sick.

I've also started giving Alex his gifts. The first one was the pair of gloves because we were talking about how he needs them. I hid them in his pocket when he was in the bathroom. When he found them, he was speechless and soooo red. <3 Next was his wallet because he yet again really needed them. He is so happy with it, and it's a good thing I gave it to him when I did because his old wallet fell into two pieces in his bag a day later. o_O The most recent one was the journal he was eyeing at the bookstore that he decided against buying. Apparently he had regretted not buying it a little bit, so now everything is good. I can't wait to give him his final gift!! I'm so excited for it!

So how about Mom and Dad are on a cruise right now. Yeah, they're off to the Bahamas for a day. They flew down on Wednesday to see Aunt Jan and they stayed the night there before the launch in Ft. Lauderdale. Luckies. I hope they're having a good time.

Hopeless

Leah, what do you think you are doing? You know you can't allow yourself to look forward to anything. You know you shouldn't hope. You know what happens when you do. How many times do you have to cry because you let yourself hope before you realize just how hopeless everything really is?

Home

I'm home for the weekend and it is sooooo nice. To have the comforting smells of home, the same creaky house noises, my own bed. The water is sweeter here. I can take a bath when I want to or hop into the hot tub (before it gets shut down for the winter). I have my Sadie to pick up and hug and kiss until she is annoyed with me. Or pet her on those rare occasions she decides to sit on my lap. My piano is here with all of my music. My mom is here.

I enjoy my life at college. I love learning so many new things and meeting new people. But there really isn't any place like home.

Breathless

I... um... Oh...

Dammit, Julian! Stop looking at me like that! *cries*

I can't get that image out of my head, that conversation after Alex got on the bus. When I couldn't form words besides "I'm sorry," and when I finally could, they were jumbled and stuttered. That conversation that had us both in tears and me hyperventilating later that night, over and over again. It is against my nature to be this selfish. It is against who I am to hurt a friend like this.

I can't do anything that doesn't hurt others.

Disowned

Genevra has officially disowned me. She no longer considers me a friend and has even un-friended me on facebook. I do not understand what I did that was so wrong that she has gone this far.

I will not hope for her to reply. I will not wait for her to reply. I will not expect her to reply. I won't... but I will.

Boyfriend

*grin* I have a boyfriend. His name is Alex. I love him. <3

*flail*