Stress to Stressless

So these last few days have been absolutely horrible. There are the problems with Liv and Harold, I told Liv, I had a big test last night in Marketing Fundamentals, and Mike and I had a fight on Tuesday.

I kept on getting interrupted while trying to study for the test, so I wound up staying up until 6am the night before just trying to get it done.

The fight with Mike was, of course, about him telling Adam. Mike called himself "terrible" and I playfully agreed. Apparently it didn't sound playful because Mike thought I was serious and asked me why I thought he was terrible. Obviously, I only have the one reason, so that's what I told him. I got upset because I brought it up again, but what am I gonna do? I'm not gonna lie to him, and if I don't say anything, he's just gonna drag it out of me anyway because that's what he does. He doesn't understand that some things are just better left unsaid.

After the test yesterday, things got better. The test was over, so I didn't have to stress about that. I had planned on going to the buy part of Liv's b-day present right after the test because the store stays open until 8 on Wednesdays, and I decided to call Harold to see if he wanted to come. He wasn't up to anything, so I met him at his アパート and we went to get the present. We started talking about relationships and all of my random thought processes. He was very surprised that I'm not physically attracted to anyone and that I've never had a legitimate crush. I thought maybe Min, but I'm not physically attracted to him. I think I think about him so much because he was the friendship that got away. I dont' think I've ever had a situation where I wanted a friendship and the other person didn't. Anyway, we wound up going back to his place and watched a bunch of random YouTube videos and gave each other massages while folding his laundry and putting it away. XD We talked about the problems and the stress I've been having and I feel a lot better now. He's super curious about my secret, though. He can't figure out what would be so bad that Liv's reaction was what it was. I want to tell him, but he hasn't earned his place and I don't think he knows me well enough to understand the impact that it's had on everyone else. But I feel like I can tell him. I want to tell him, but I won't.

On a happier note, today is Mike's birthday and I'm going home tomorrow! Mike got an HD TV from his parents for his birthday and I'm giving him a nice fountain pen and, if I can find one tomorrow, a new watch. I ordered a magnetic pendullum thingy for him because I wasn't sure if I'd be able to find a watch. Having his birthday and Valentine's Day right by each other is really annoying. I have to come up with more presents than normal. ><

I kinda want to start back up with martial arts again. Thanks Harold. ^_^; He was doing a couple of moves and it got me wanting to do it again. Maybe I'll ask him if he'll be my sensei for a while. XD